Or ‘In Which I Failed To Make a Change but Ended Up Accidentally Finding Successes’.
Well, my Lovelies,
It is Monday evening and I have not written my weekly Mindful Monday post. I think that in itself is pretty indicative that this is a week that has not gone well for me.
Up this week was the third principle from Elisha Goldstein’s article ‘7 Things Mindful People do Differently and How to Get Started’.
Show Gratitude for Good Moments – and Grace for Bad Ones.
More than being grateful for the good ones and giving yourself a break for the bad ones, this principle teaches us to hold our emotions lightly. In other words – don’t get so wrapped up with and carried away by emotions, hold them lightly. They are not permanent and they will pass.
I was planning to stop right there with today’s lesson as it was only about 9:15am on Monday morning where I hit a brick wall on this one. At this time I let myself experience an emotion I like to call ‘what-in-God’s-name-are-you-thinking-you-idiot’, it is an emotion closely related to ‘seriously?-they-let-you-out-without-a-carer?’. Both of these are the sister emotions to ‘how-in-the-name-of-all-that-is-good-have-you-gotten-this-far-in-life-without-a-piano-falling-on-you?’ However, as I was typing I realised that when I encounter that level of what I perceive to be stupid decision making I can often drown in the hurt and anger at being thwarted or screwed over in the work place. My therapist had once pointed out to me that rejection of my ideas isn’t rejection of me. Our ideas are not unique to us nor are we defined by them. She went on to tell a story about someone who had invented something on one side of the world only to find someone on the other had done the same thing and beaten him to registering the patent on in. The point was brought home to me when I went to register the name for this website only to find that someone had bought that domain name and started using it three weeks beforehand (curse me for not registering it four months earlier when I thought of it and checked its availability).
It was a challenging concept to me as I had always seen myself and my ideas intrinsically linked. I feel personal rejection when my ideas are passed over professionally (mainly because they are freakin’ awesome like me). Anyway, I digress. But I digress with a purpose.